Out Of Reach

There was a house BBQ party last night at Yummy Girl's place. It was a low-key affair, but I really enjoyed myself. The food was good and the company was excellent.

Yummy Girl is one of those girls who I've always admired, but has always been out of my reach. Not because of anything else - but because she considers me "too nice", for her liking - a large part of which is because, I don't drink alcoholic beverages or smoke.

(She's actually said this before to me, one night in a club in KL, albeit in a slightly tipsy and half-flirtatious mode - "You know, Ray - I'd go out with you, if you weren't so baik". I had half a mind to list out to her all my vices (and mistakes) to her just to show that I'm not that baik - but I was hesitant - just in case, she would start rolling on the floor in laughter, at how inconsequential and mainstream it was)

And sometimes, I'm bemused at the way she introduces me to her friends - "This is Ray - this is one of the most BAIK (with emphasis) guys I know". Aisey, that really kills my chicks market, man.

"Baik", just does not cut it, nowadays - everyone wants someone with at least, a tinge of bad-ass-ness. Loads of it and if you look like a tragedy about to happen, is even better.


But back to Yummy Girl. Like me, she's divorced - her marriage ended because her first husband is a bum that absolutely did not deserve her, though he was very good-looking.

But what I love about her, is that she's grounded and there are no airs about her - none of these pretentious KL hip-and-happenin' wannabe bullshit, that you get so much, of nowadays. It's refreshing to see someone like that - she lives her life in these pretentious circles, but she's never let that influence her.

She's warm, genuine, intelligent, attractive, hardworking, ambitious and driven, relatively successful for someone her age, is devoted to her family, sociable, down-to-earth, has a great sense of humour and in her spare time, is purely laidback and fun. Just the sort of girl you can imagine spending a lazy Sunday at home with, but still having lots of fun, because of the person that she is.

She's a liberal (slightly more than me) but she's rooted in core traditional values and she doesn't aim to live her current lifestyle, forever. She's acknowledged to me that she would make a U-turn, someday and she wants a partner that could help her go down that path. But maybe right now, she wants someone that's more like her, in her current stage.

I know that we have a lot of common ground in some areas - but I guess, it's the areas where we don't have much in common, that will keep her from even giving me a second look. It's a pity - honestly, major differences aside - I've always looked at her as EXACTLY the sort of girl, I'd go for. She would make someone out there, a very lucky husband, one day.

Oh, well,...I guess some things in one's life is only meant to be admired from up close. But in another life and in another circumstance,...hell, who knows?!,...

Perhaps, some things are meant to be out of reach for me, in this lifetime.

Maybe in the next lifetime, I should be born an heir, to a mafia boss. That should kill off the "baik" image. Ha!