Rapatmu, Sayang
Rapatmu
Bagai udara yang menyelubungi jasadku
Seperti bayang yang mengekoriku
Seakan memori yang termanis
Bak selesa enak mimpi
yang teramat mengujakan
Rapatmu di sisiku
Walaupun kau tiada
Maupun pintu hati
ku tutup ketat,
Berlari dari kemahuan diri
yang terlalu
mendalam
Rapatmu
Dahaga tanpa puas
Yang melawan arus masa, jarak
dan lontaran kebencian
yang berulang-ulang
tanpa hentian
Namun rapatmu
Tidak bisa ku takluki,
Ketahuilah,
Kau lebih dekat pada hatiku
dan segala keinginan yang mungkin
ku idamkan,
Dari diriku sendiri
Walaupun dirimu
aku jauhi,
tapi rapatmu
bagai nafas yang perlu,
mengiringi sunyi setiap hari,
tanpa suara dan kelembutanmu,
sayang.
Nukilan:
Stingrayz
9 Mei 2007
Bagai udara yang menyelubungi jasadku
Seperti bayang yang mengekoriku
Seakan memori yang termanis
Bak selesa enak mimpi
yang teramat mengujakan
Rapatmu di sisiku
Walaupun kau tiada
Maupun pintu hati
ku tutup ketat,
Berlari dari kemahuan diri
yang terlalu
mendalam
Rapatmu
Dahaga tanpa puas
Yang melawan arus masa, jarak
dan lontaran kebencian
yang berulang-ulang
tanpa hentian
Namun rapatmu
Tidak bisa ku takluki,
Ketahuilah,
Kau lebih dekat pada hatiku
dan segala keinginan yang mungkin
ku idamkan,
Dari diriku sendiri
Walaupun dirimu
aku jauhi,
tapi rapatmu
bagai nafas yang perlu,
mengiringi sunyi setiap hari,
tanpa suara dan kelembutanmu,
sayang.
Nukilan:
Stingrayz
9 Mei 2007
posted by Stingrayz | 10:26 AM
14 Comments:
Beautiful, yet very sad.
When you have loved someone so deeply, it's hard to let go.
May time heal your wound inside out.
Stingrayz,
Let him\her go. If it's meant to be, then it's meant to be... But if it's not, redha ok?
:)
d Grey's Anatomy fan\addict
exactly how & what I'm feeling too...yeah I stayed away as well....eventho what I want is to be very close....
Oh dear..
Anonymous:
Thanks.
Time does heal, though not fast enough sometimes, I think.
But I'd like to think that I'm getting stronger by the day.
Anonymous # 2:
Hello again, fellow Greyster. :)
And yes - it's a HER. I don't bend the other way, thanks. ;) Haha!
Yes, redha is a word I'm all too familiar with.
The heart always lags the mind, when it comes to acceptance of losing a loved one.
To use a phrase you would understand - she's my McDreamy. ;)
That's why it's difficult - though I'm taking little steps forward, every day.
lonelylonelywoman:
Have read your latest entry. Am sorry to hear what you're going through. :( I truly sympathize, dear - I cannot imagine what you must be feeling.
But yes, the right sort of distance from the wrong sort of people, would be good for both of us, no?
You can't help the love you feel. But you can help how you respect yourself and not be taken for a ride, anymore.
Danyanova:
I'm ok, doll.:)
Don't sound so despondent - occasional Malay poetry emotional outpourings aside - I am getting better.
Hope you're doing better with your dilemmas, too.
And I wish you all the best with the internal make-over, dear - that's a good step ahead. :)
Care to join me on the emotional fasting? ;)
Oops, my bad:)
But tell me, what is it about her that makes her your McDreamy?
- Greyster
Anon 2/Greyster:
If I had to put it into a description, there'd be too many things to say.
I'd just say this - she and the kids, felt like home to me.
An indescribable sense of anticipation, completeness and acceptance. I counted my blessings in each moment with her.
And I seem to be limitless in loving her - even when she's not in my life anymore. A big part of me, still wants to be there - quietly.
Does that explain the McDreamy part? :)
Yes it does:)
When you can love someone truly unconditionaly, then it's real. And unfortunately, from my personal experience, it won't die with time.
So for your future partner, good luck in competing with that :)
- Greyster
Greyster:
I beg to differ - in my past experiences of loving unconditionally with partners (other than with the current "hangover damsel") - it takes a maximum of about 4 years and I actually do move on - feelings and all.
And sometimes, even earlier, about 2-3 years.
The love may last - but the hope learns to kill itself over time - and then I'll begin to heal.
I've got to start healing faster, though.
Am not getting any younger and should not spend so much time grieving over lovers, whom did not pick me.
Such beautiful poetry..Love it!Kinda know what ur trying to convey here..
It's hard to let someone go alrirght, but sometimes it could be a sign of something good to come.U just have to hang in there and let the healing process take its time with you.Wouldn't want all these emotional fast gone to waste after all the efforts that u've taken. :)
nice.
Aries 213:
Thanks. Yep, you could be right - it could be a sign of something good to come.
Though I sometimes find myself in fear of hoping for the unlikely, nowadays.
Noni Anak Pak Samad:
Thanks, dear. :)
Oiii! Welcome back to the blog! Where have you been, dear? :)
wow stigrayz... you sound like you've been to hell and back when it comes to love (?)
guess m slighthly luckier. i don't grieve over the one that i love unconditionally when the person did not pick me.. i just redha and feel blessed that this person is still in my life now.. i am foolish like that.
stepping stone. learning me through loving this person. and hopefully preparing for something great in the future.
but i wish us both to be loved as we deserve to be.
:) greyster
greyster
Greyster:
Amin to that prayer! :)
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